Well, it has been over five months since the death of my wife from Uterine Cancer. It was a long, difficult struggle but we lived and enjoyed ourselves until the last month. I am still reeling but still following initial Mantras that I gave my two sons, ages 25 and 20: Stay Groomed, Keep up Routines and Stay Busy.
We were married twenty-six years and dated for four years before that.
I have kept busy cleaning out the apartment, putting her clothes and shoes (an incredible amount) in storage for eventual donation to charity. I realize that the keep busy part is a coping mechanism. This catches me when I am driving to work or at Mass. The times I have to myself and my thoughts. The grief comes and I almost start crying. I shake it off and deal with it. If you are alone, that is when it comes. Luckily, I go to sleep easily, though sometimes I wake up early and stay up.
I am living the same life, just not with her. The food remains the same since I did most of the cooking. I went away to College, so I know how to do a Wash. Two Loads every Saturday.
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